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there's a lit cigarette in the hand of my new angel
she's blowing smoke like halos
Woohoo, AHOV comes out on DVD February 28! Of course, that's not quite soon enough for me, but hey. ;)

I'm still sick, and now I think my dad is getting sick too. Argh. I slept until around 10:30 or so when the phone woke me up. Then a couple hours later I had to pick Max up. Thankfully, he's asleep right now. I'm really hoping my brother is off work tomorrow and will take him. I'm also hoping he will freaking pay me for last week and this week because I have zero dollars and some-odd cents. Ugh. I need a freaking job. *sigh*

Here is something interesting I found in an old friend's LJ.

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want -- good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.

Well, I have to go finish making dinner or my mom will probably be pretty pissed. Haha. Later.

the energetic nature of volume: sick sick
the melody: Duran Duran - Come Undone

7 became the promise and the threat
This song is so depressing. It came on the radio last week when Mom and I were going to the mall and I nearly started crying. Ugh. Anyway.

Last night, I decided to install the software to Mom's new digital camera on their computer. Apparently, this was a ginormous mistake, as it somehow managed to delete any trace of the modem. Uninstalling it didn't work, as there does not seem to be an uninstall option. WTF. On top of that, they misplaced the modem box, which had the CD-ROM in it. Argh. So how am I on the Internet, you ask? On my parents' very old PC, the first one we ever had from 1996. We're talking one gig of hard drive space, 64MB of RAM and a 4x CD-ROM. It had Windows 95 on it, but apparently they upgraded to Windows 98 before getting their newer system. *snort* This thing sucks. But hey, at least it also now has a 56K modem, evidently. I remember back in the day it only had a 14.4 modem. Ick.

This is like stepping into a time machine, sort of. I mean, my first experience with the Internet was on this thing. If only...

Ew, today I saw a dead armadillo in the yard. Gross. I don't think those things are too common in this area, so that was kind of weird. I think Sassy (our dog) and the neighbor's dog must have killed it. We think they might have also done something to Johnny and Dixie because they are still missing. :(

Well, other than that, I don't have much to write except I have no life! I'm hoping I won't have to babysit much this week. I need a break. He's being a terror again. Today he slapped me across the face (that little punk HURTS!) and later he bit my hand pretty hard. Brat. Oh well, I love him anyway. Funny how that works out, isn't it?

the energetic nature of volume: contemplative contemplative
the melody: Mariah Carey - All I Want For Christmas Is You

3 became the promise and the threat

"you'll be with me like a pawprint on my heart"

November 19 is not Merlin's actual birthday, but the day he picked us. Here is part of an entry written the day after: Oh, and Nick found a cat outside his door last night before I got here. It's this big, beautiful fluffy black cat with HUGE green eyes and cute little fang-like teeth! When he showed the cat to me, I was like "We can keep him and name him Merlin!" so hopefully we'll get to keep him.

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I guess I won't disable comments this time. Maybe then people can acknowledge it.

I love you, Fang Face.

the energetic nature of volume: blank empty

32 became the promise and the threat

199? - 2005

the energetic nature of volume: depressed brokenhearted

This was supposed to be Tuesday, but I only just saw it today and wanted to post it. It's an important issue, and it's a personal one.

Self-Injury AwarenessCollapse )

the melody: Jack Off Jill - Strawberry Gashes

the threat

the melody: Dresden Dolls - Backstabber

13 became the promise and the threat
Hey, who wants to go have this done tomorrow instead of me?

On one hand, I'm extremely hopeful and optimistic about having some sort of relief, but on the other, I REALLY hate the idea of a needle in my stomach, and the risks don't sound very fun, either. *sigh*

You better believe I'm eating some ice cream tonight... and hopefully tomorrow afterwards. I am so gonna come home and go back to bed. *shudder*

the energetic nature of volume: hopeful hopeful
the melody: HIM - Join Me In Death

11 became the promise and the threat
you suck, and that's sad
You are the "you suck, and that's sad" Happy Bunny. You're truthful, but can be a bit brutal.

which happy bunny are you?
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Funny that should be my answer, since I have that button and pen. :D

Why can't it be Sunday night again? I am so freaking hooked on "Desperate Housewives" it's not even funny. Thanks, Mom. Whenever I get my paid account back, I suppose I should make some DH icons.

Ugh, I don't know why, but I went to bed fairly early (for me) last night and I woke up at two-freaking-thirty this afternoon. WTF? Thank gods I don't have a job right now. Aside from the physical problems thanks to this stupid condition, mentally I just I couldn't handle it. *sigh* I'm still in the midst of a depression and it sucks. I'm not bad enough to the point where I can't function, but it's definitely affecting me in other ways... like my sleep.

Here's something a bit sickening (thank GODS I don't have to pay for it):

Emergency Services 01/03/05

  • DRUGS/INCDNT RAD $784.01

  • LAB CHEMISTRY $274.50

  • LAB UROLOGY $216.00

  • EMERGENCY ROOM $681.50

  • PHARMACY $68.20


  • LAB HEMATOLOGY $182.00

  • CT SCAN $3900.00



After all that, and all the rest of the crap, they STILL don't know what is wrong with me. Sheesh. But anyway...

That must have really sucked for her, especially since it was her last few performances. *sniffle* I really would like to see it someday, and I still really want to read the book. Haha, I'll probably do some "Wicked" icons, too, whenever I get my paid account back.

I don't know why I keep posting things like "I have to go see this movie" or "buy this book". I don't have any money. *shrug*

Well, I don't even know why I'm posting here, so I guess I'll wrap it up. Later.

the energetic nature of volume: indescribable indescribable
the melody: Idina Menzel - I'm Not That Girl

the threat